I have been wanting to write something which I have drafted in my head.
But all have to put aside for now.

I cancelled my outings with my cousins.
The family will not be going for a Hari Raya gathering at Parit Jelutong, Batu Pahat.
I may need to delegate someone to run Hani's Hen's Party.
Cancel dinner with my long-time-no-see Uni friend.
Probably even sell my Russell Peters tickets which I have excitedly booked when the show extended for another night.
Worse, I manage to get really good seats.
If it is bad enough, I may need to get someone to do the dinner speech for Hani's wedding and may not even get to attend her wedding.
I may need to cancel my trip to Miri which me and sis were so excited about and already getting my aunty to book it for us.

All these are events along my calendar pipeline till mid Nov.
Reason being, my grandmother was admitted to the hospital again.

A condition which the nurses and Sister working at the ward which Nyai is always admitted, shake their heads and say that this time, it is bad.
If it wasn't for Bro who admitted her in, "she could have died of infection."

I shall not elaborate so much for now.
I always always always hold my bullets.
I need my sleep.
Tomorrow, there is a presentation plus 3 offices to go. Which means that I am going to be very exhausted.

This time I need to re-shuffle everything and it is really tricky cos work is really piling up again - which is good.
More presentations. More meetings. Internal Audit.
In fact, even Boss encouraged me to participate in the ASEAN launch of a Program Management System which will run for about 6 months, beginning November.
I am so excited since I would pioneer the implementation across 2 projects which I am juggling.

Fun isn't it?

Now I really need to focus on my time management.
And I really mean focus because it seems like I ni "jatuh ditimpa tangga"
The many unfavourable situations that come by and all sorts of emotions running in me now is not helping.

Really not helping at all.

I will pull through in time.
I know I will. I pray I will.

I just need sufficient strength to do so.
Mind, body & soul.