Whoa!
There are just increasing amounts of people there reading this huh?!?
Well.. well.. well..

Anyway, Saturday was a pretty good day.
As usual i am supposed to meet my dearest Ef for lunch before we head for our classes at AMP.
And she arrived at 2.10pm.. 20 mins before class..
*sigh*

Nasir came to have coffee with me, Ef and Mas and I am glad he felt comfortable with them.. Who wouldn't.. they are like the best chicks you might wanna hang out with. So corny and funny and yes i am always the disgusting one..
Its like out of the blue i can come up with something so uncensored like:
"Did you ever notice that cats always lick their pussies? And worse, they do it in public"
"Mima.. Stop it eh.." Ef screamed..
And i was like,"Yeah but that's the irony of cats you know..."
*lol*

Nasir dropped me off at Paya Lebar afterwards after class and i headed to town.
Abang called earlier and told me that dad already had reservations at Hyatt for dinner with uncle max
*groan*
I like Uncle Max but you know there are boundaries in terms of behaviour and all..
But Uncle Max decided not to come so the family had a good time at the Straits Kitchen.
Ein was so excited to see all the food there.
I wasn't eating much and looking at Ein eat made me full..
I have successfully lost 5kg now since i started my weight loss..
(ok sidetrack a lil' bit)
I was cleaning the house and dad said,"eh your tummy got smaller ah?"
"huh? only now you realise huh? Guess how much weight i have lost?"
"1.237kg?" dad answered.
"nope"
"2.487kg?"
"dad! you are really underestimating me! I lost 5 kg ok!"'
But i am still targeting another 5 kilos off the current weight..
It is tough people i tell you.
So we got home so bloated with food.
Thanks again daddy..
2 days in a row having superb food.

I got home and wanted to blog when i logged on to MSN.
Hmmm... Emails..
Opened the Inbox and i just stared into the PC like i dunnoe how long.
Shahrizal emailed me.
*raised eyebrow*
Oh anyway, he had his blog removed...
*raised eyebrow again*
I thought he wanted to do some explaination. But i don't think he did much.
In fact he did nothing to make things better.
He just said that the whole relationship was fantastic.
That there was never a third party(and who was she again?)
That he felt that leaving me without picking up any of my calls or replying my sms-es was the best thing for now.
That 'kalau ada jodoh, insya allah dengan apa cara pun Allah akan temukan kiter'
I think he should know one thing that probably he doesn't.
He did not only hurt me.
He hurt my mom and my sister.
Especially my mom. Cos I feel the pain but she sees the pain her daughter bears.
So if he is coming back, he has to do more than just having to pacify me.
I think he has to come clean and be transparent to my whole family.
And he has to thank his lucky stars if it works cos i dont think it is going to be that easy.
But i have been praying to God day and night whatever that is going to take place will be His decision and i would put my trust in His hands that it is going to be the best for me.
So if Rizal is still going to end up being mine, gosh i seriously wouldnt know what to say. I decided to follow my instincts with His guidance.
God.. Pls help me..

Oh i remember that i did mention in the previous posts that if i had wronged him in any manner, I am willing to make a public apology on this blog.
But nothing was being made transparent.
So *shake head* no no..
Fair enough?
Telling me what a fantastic girlfriend i had been, doesn't explain himself
*flips hair*
He got something to explain, he knows where and how to find me. Cos he knows my schedule.

I am getting less angry now.
Beginning to accept fate better.
Turning to God cos that's the only avenue that can help me now.
I never prayed anything bad for him.
I wish him success in life definitely only so that he has a comfortable life in future.
We used to say,"All or nothing at all"
So if all this is just a test, I have allowed God to take control of this whole situation wholeheartedly.

well..
Today, i was at home most of the time, cleaning up the whole house.
Ein helped with the laundry.
Went to see granny and out for dinner and coffee at far east.
I saw Zul while i was walking with mom.
Knowing mom would see him, I looked other side and he sms-ed me..
'hello i'm not THAT oblivious ok!'
He did notice the slimming effect
*grins*

Nasir coming over today, technically to use my scanner
And we will be going out for lunch.
I will start with my Mandarin class again tmr..
Woooohooo!!!
And i have not touched my Mandarin for so long!

the tag i received made my eye wide open.
advice: well, shud not have snatch someone's else guy then if u feel the pinch...
Hmmmm... I may be depressed but i am getting out of it you know
And despite all that, i did not forget being how being bitchy was like.
So Miss Advice, I guess you are right. But it wasn't my call that I wanted him. I am not sure if he was/is yours. But you know something, if he isnt, you might wanna watch your man cos i might lure him out of your control. Then i'll sing to him the song by Pussycat dolls, Don't cha.
*evil laugh*

So to end things off for tonight. i shall share with you my small conversation with my sister.
Me: Do you know ********** has a blog?
Sis: Yeah.. but you know the blog sounds like it belong to an 18 year old sey
(and the person is older than that)
Me: Really? haha.. Just because you are not interested with what is written
Sis: No la
Me: Ok so how old does my blog sound like?
Sis: 30
Me: Thanks!