Sweet dreams Intan

Dad succumbed to Ein's craving for Fish & Co
yes you would have imagine..
Seafood platter.
As for me I settled merely for grilled calamari which surprisingly made me almost wanna puke cos my appetite has been down lately.
I think dad noticed the glomminess on my face.
He was teasing me here and there which is rare cos he knows i am very strong headed
*lol*
Anyway, thanks daddy for the wonderful dinner.
He just came back today from KL

And yes, his Filipino friend is gng back today, technically and dad told me to pick up the laptop from the service centre by the time he comes back.
I had been dragging to the service centre.
But i had no choice.

Got there and when rizal saw me, he left the service centre to go and smoke.
Not wanting to see my face
*smirk*
what's so wrong about giving me an explaination?
I went back to the car and mom thought i was so happy to see him.
I started to cry.. just cry cry cry
*roll eyes*
i looked out of the window while mom was talking to me.
And she said,"Don't be embaressed to cry in front of me intan. I just hope this is of a lesson to you."

My heart is feeling so exhausted.
Probably cos of the freaking little sleep i had.
I am so worried that i would just faint due to exhaustion.
I am actually worried that i am at the brink of it.
(sigh.. all that he never bothered)
So anyway, i was lying my head at the back of the car, resting.
I told mom it sucks when your eyes and body's tired but your heart cant sleep.
She told me it was actually more tiring.
So here was what happen.
I managed to catch 20 mins of sleep in the car
'Shit i shouldn't be sleeping cos i may not sleep at night'
And i was like,'What the hell.. i am drooling?!?!?!'
Something which last happen probably a year back.
I am not the person who drools..
I just snore.
Then i realised i must have been really fucking exhausted.
Arrrrgh! I am so pissed!

I got back home worrying how to sleep.
But i managed to sneak into mom's room and get sleeping pills.
I hope i knock off soon.
I need the sleep.
I have been praying to God that i wanted to sleep.
I didnt know the beauty of sleep until recently.
I need the rest.

After many months, a few nights ago, my mom said,"Sweet Dreams"
Yes.. I hope so tonight.

P/S: Hey peps who tagged me without leaving me your actual names and links, I am touched by your concern. Cos I for one don't bother tagging. Whoever you are, I don't think i can ever thank you enough, giving me the emotional support.I just didnt think that people would bother reading this stupid shit.. you know what i mean? I pray that i get out of this depression soon and do something for myself. And i really mean something. I just wish i know who you guys are. Till then guys.. take care.. and yes i will TRY to care of myself too.. I just pray i can sleep.