My day started off good today.
At least better than the last few days.
I had an interview with a recruitment agency and i hope it looks bright.
And yeah i have been sending out my resumes without the tudung and attending the interviews without the tudung.
Well.. it is upsetting looking at what the world is turning into now.

My cousin has been wanting to see me and since he was free today, he is nice to send me for the interview.
Coffee before that
And lunch after that.
We had a good talk about love, life, marriage and everything else.
There he goes..

I have always found him attractive though he is turning 31.
well.. we had a good time together.

Interview is ok.
I am waiting for approval from the agency's client and see whether i get through to the second round of interview.
And then there is another round after that.

Well, I pray that now my life is falling better into place.
Having a new job, being in a new environment.
I am known NOT to solve issues in my life but to RUN AWAY from it.
Some people say it would not help cos it may catch up with us.
Now here's the trick.
You run away from it and make sure u run further and faster than the problem chases after you.
By that time, the problem gets tired following.
Cool kan my theory.

Yes, i need a new life now
Away from MEN
Away from DECEIT and LIES

One thing i cant put up with...

LIES

Yes i did find out Rizal lied to me.
If he was going to marry someone else can tell us what...
Boleh kiter rewang rewang kan?
I mean why do u need to lie.
Go to the pameran pengantin with someone else and said you have briefing for the SILAT SEA GAMES which took entirely the whole day?
What's worse is to be sitting down with the girl and enquiring at the booth.
Oh yeah.. friend's girlfriend..
Whatever..
I was a fool for him.. But i don't plan being a fool for him any longer.
If it was his friend's girlfriend, then why isnt his friend sitting next to the girl?
Get the logic?

Yes I am mad
I am mad cos because i thought he loved me that's why i cried for 8 fucking nights thinking i would lose him
Because i thought he loved me i prayed to God day and night to help me out
Because i thought he loved me I couldn't eat
Because i thought he loved me I couldn't sleep for 10 fucking nights now and you guys should not imagine how it felt.
And he was sleeping away saying he was too tired.
But i believe that this is God's way of showing it to me after many hajat and istiharah prayers.
When I found out, i sujud syukur. I thanked God for saving me from the further pain i am already feeling.

I am finding a new light.
A new day.
A new life.
And men who think i am out there single and available,
Just get the fuck off my back alright.
Cos i thought Rizal was the nicest man i ever met.
And i was wrong.
I am just too hurt and angry now.

But if i am wrong on this verdict,then God forgive me.
If it is fated for Rizal to show me truth, i'll humble myself and apologise on this blog.
But till then.. I am not going to fall for this again.
And i dont think he can prove to me either.

And yes.. I shall not waste the pretty

So long...