.::The Butterfly Effects in my Life::.

Friday, November 06, 2009

He is the perfect dad for me.

I cannot thank mommy enough for marrying him. I remember when I was younger, with the exact looks of my dad, I asked mom,"Mom, why you marry abah. Abah tak hensem."

I always remembered how beautiful my mother was and how I wish to age looking like her today.

I remember how temperamental when I was younger.

Grumpy was how I remembered I growing up.

I remember how daddy would postpone his business trips to coach us in Maths for exams.

Put these two together, I am sure daddy didnt have a wonderful time coaching me.

I will tear papers, break pens and slam books in frustration of not able to solve an equation.

Yet, his patience works wonders.

Dinstinction students we turned out - for maths lar.

I remember how he bought CDs for us at Far East on weekends.

Back in those days, 1 CD costed $39.90 or even $42.90 and yet we each get one for ourselves.

Today, me & lil' Sis still gets excited whenever dad enters the petrol station cos we get to buy our chips and sweets or chocolates or both.

Heh.

Yup, we are his little girls - still are.

He always knew what I am up to.

We talk about a lot of things. But him being the Scorpio having his own ideal, he will always find it hard to agree with this Taurean daughter who is very stubborn-headed.

He screens the boys I dated.

Those I wanted to know on my own and those who were introduced to me.

We argued a lot because he is more picky than I am when it comes to letting his daughter be in the hands of another man.

I am glad we did have our differences. Else I would not be able to see two sides to a coin.

In fact, I am happy where I am today.

What strengthened our already bonded relationship was during my engagement preparations.

While my mom was one who I whined and complained and share ideas, being there physically when I vented my frustrations, getting busy and creative with my dulangs, dad was my problem solver.

Cool and relaxed, he advised but allow it to guide his daughter. In the end, it was up to me how I wanted to handle it.

I have always looked up to him as a man who loves his wife too dearly.

A man who gives all that he can to his family.

The education he gave the three of us.

The wonderful holidays that we get, except for tomorrow since it is his birthday.

The time he sacrifices for the family, coming back from travels and spending dinner with us and nightly drives with mommy.

In short, I have wonderful parents but since today is a special day, a big shout out to daddy!

Happy 55th Birthday daddy!

I love you many many.

You are the only person who made me cry on my engagement day.

p/s: I just want to note here that I am the second person who wished daddy Happy Birthday.

Mom very smart go and bring daddy out so she told dad not to pick up the phone until she is the first one to wish him. I wished him over the phone and purposely hogged the call with Lil' Sis, Bro, Sis-in-law & the fiance trying to call him.

Dah macam nak telipon radio kan!

Daddy, you will always be deeply loved by us.

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11/06/2009 12:23:00 PM

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

I was contemplating which of the 2 blogs to write in.
This will be a solely personal note without any external factors influencing this entry.
I do not usually write how I feel, if you notice, but there are really some things which hit you every now and then.

It all began recently when I twirling my engagement ring around my finger, thinking how to respond one of my emails. I took a look at the ring and it hit me that I am 17 weeks engaged.
4 months & 1 week.

I calculated again.

How did the time fly?
It felt like it was only a month ago that I got engaged and yesterday that I woke up looking and beaming at my ring.
I have a beautiful engagement ring. The love and promise binded to it makes it even prettier.
Period.

Insya Allah, I am 1 year to my wedding.
To anyone in love, I would not recommend a long term engagement.
Get engaged and within 3 to 6 months, go get married.
Don't worry about the wedding plans. The wedding planner will have it all ready for you on your big day.
We both went against the advise of the habib of a short-term engagement. Worse, we postponed our wedding plans.

We were worrying about so many things.
What people will say when you get married too soon.
What people will say when the brothers and sisters get married within the same year.
(My brother and his sister got married to their own spouses within 2 weeks grace)
The wedding finances, since when I knew him then, he was a cadet pilot earning very little allowance.
We were afraid of too little preparation time only to find out recently from my wedding planner that I could start planning in March.

The dugaan we have during this engagement?
Subhanallah.

To my dearest fiance, he deemed that it only made us stronger as we go along.
That is the theory that made us continue the journey hand in hand.
We had a whirlwind relationship and got engaged even before knowing each other more than we or anyone should.
In fact, till today, we do not know the exact reason why we agreed to get engaged to be married.

It is crazy.

But you can never imagine what we have been through for the 17 weeks and before the engagement.
If you had followed my blog closely for 8 years, there were streams of guys I dated and because of that, you do not see the archives of this blog.

Those whom I dated for weeks or months or years.
Those who said they can't live without me and rather be alone and still ended up happy.
I remember confiding in a girlfriend many months back and she said something which hit me hard in the head.

"Mima, don't ever worry what will happen to them. They are men. They will be able to fend for themselves. If they said they will rather be alone than without you, bullshit."

My own fiance introduced me to Kelly Clarkson's 'Already Gone' a few weeks ago.

The song did remind me for a moment of my latest saga which is the worst of all kinds.
It was the most unimaginable the kind of pain the fiance had to face. The emotional war he had to fight for us.
I overlooked his kindness and protectiveness only because I was selfish.
But like the song, I am glad I did what I had to do.

As the pain cuts deeper, I decided that it was time for me to make a decision.
I never intended to hurt any party but yes, the best man did win.
With His grace, I am glad that I made a decision and archived the old love story without any hard feelings.
If it was a love story, it was not meant to last.

Today, I am more focused.

I raised from where I have fallen with so much guilt in me & the way I ignored my fiance's feelings.
Probably today, we are fixing the pain patches and not acknowledging the pain we still may have because it will not make things any better.
I was cursed never to be able to see happiness but I leave that in His hands.

We are both still face a lot of challenges today and anticipating more ahead but we are always more level-headed addressing them.
Things Insya Allah are looking up for us.
We are seeing the light with whatever we thought were impossible then.
Mom said it is rezeki orang nak dirikan rumahtangga.

Happiness is when I get to see my fiance's face.
He makes my heart smile.
I love our morning drives. Waking up early was never something I could do before I met him.
Today, the body clock automatically wakes me up at 7am.
I am all awake and fresh by the time I get out from my shower, always hurrying to get ready to see him.
I am always late no matter how fast I try to get ready and after 3 months, he never once lost his cool.

He will have my morning coffee ready in the car, looking all handsome, clean and in his shades, waiting for me.
The good morning greetings, the morning jokes or even dancing in the car at 8am, he never fail to make me look forward to another weekday morning.

It is true that it is always the littlest things that matter.

Today, I am loving him more than yesterday and will love him more tomorrow.
That is the reason why I am going to marry him.
I am in love.

Will you marry me Alfi Sohfian?

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11/04/2009 03:52:00 PM

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

WARNING!!!
Not for those who lemah semangat cannot see blood etc etc.
Not for the weak heart or claimed having a weak heart.
Definitely not for the pregnant ladies.

HIGHLY RECOMMENDED
For those who wants to go on diet.
Either you eat and you throw up or you dont bother eating at all. (Keep thinking about the video when you eat)

I warned all of you but I am sure the ~~curiosity killed the cat~~ kaypoh-ness killed your appetite.
Whenever shows indicated 'Viewers descretion', I always thought it was nothing.

This is something!
I lasted only 2 mins watching it.
To think it is a 4 min something and a 7 min something video.

Did mom say she is making donuts today?
Double damn.

I will never look at melted cheese the same way again.

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11/03/2009 04:45:00 PM

Thursday, October 29, 2009

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10/29/2009 05:28:00 PM

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Another allergy last night but it was not so bad as the last two allergies I went through.

I am still a zombie because of antihistermine and the face looks a little more swollen but at least the breathing is better today.

Had my Fluarix (Flu Vaccination) jab yesterday morning.

Eyes felt a bit swollen and breathing was a little tight. I blamed it on lack of sleep and tight undergarments.

I wonder how it never occurred to me as an allergy.

I hope I will pull through today ok.

Ok here is my baby(latest & newest) purchase.

Prada bowler bag.

Now both my Pradas are huge bags which are ok.

Simply because they are meant to be for casual and office days so I can easily put in my story book, magazines, water bottle and camera inside the bag.

Also everytime I purchase a bag, I will say that this will be a good diaper bag, which it probably is but I doubt I can tahan with a bag that long.

Nafsu

To those who would like to understand why I was so eager to sell my first Prada, here is the latest purchase.

Product: BL0504

I thought that since I am taller than average and big, this suits me well enough, covering the perut etc etc.

I love the way how the word 'Prada' stands out from the bag and there is a bag tag!!!

I love Prada's bag tag.

Somehow I feel it makes the bag kecoh-ly nice.

This is as real as it can get - really!

As my bag gets bigger and more spacious, my water bottle gets larger, my books get thicker, my unnecessary make up is more, again etc etc.

The bigger the bag, the more complete I feel. So even if I am stranded, I am really ok.

Money, Blackberry, book, camera.

So stranded means having some peace at last.

I use to make myself wear heels, carry big & heavy bags to work the body like a form of exercise.

But the knees gave way.

I know I am only 27 and neither did I expect this out of myself.

Yesterday, I felt as if I fell in love for the first time, twice.

Go figure!

I am thinking that maybe it was Beginner's Luck that I sold off my Prada so fast.

But I have been planning to sell 2nd hand bags for a while now.

My aunties are bag crazy so you know now where I get the genes from.

No harm buying 2nd hand bags, especially among us Muslims.

Conferm takder simpan dendeng babi dalam beg.

In anycase, trust me, no one will know if it is 2nd hand.

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10/28/2009 11:56:00 AM

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Updated as of 27th Oct 09, 2.10pm:
ITEM SOLD!!

Ok, I am serious..

I am in love with another Prada and it just had to be cream colour.

I am hating myself but I cannot miss out on this buy. At the same time, I cannot keep 3 cream colour Pradas.

I am crazy.

I am just dying to get another Prada.

I'm lacking of space and my mother is going to kill me.

This Prada is very lightly used and was just re-conditioned.

Lamb leather so it is very soft and spacious.

Product No: BL0372

Colour: Cream

I am only letting it go for $450.

Non-negotiable because it is too cheap already, trust me.

Comes with a sling so you can carry it two ways.

Authencity card & dustbag included.

Free Delivery.

Email me!

nuramima@hotmail.com

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10/27/2009 11:52:00 AM

Monday, October 26, 2009

Weekend was great.

It could have been better but I am thankful nevertheless.

I woke up early cos I did not want to spoil my body clock and I started baking.

Baked for Alfi & his friends & his family.
Not forgetting my lovely cousin, Shikin who could not sleep and will not eat until she gets these muffins cupcakes, or at least that is what she says.

Last night, my cousin-to-be, smsed me and told me to call her when she can come and collect if I made more.

I was on the way to work today when KakP called me up and wanted these choc cupcakes too cos she wanted to UNDERSTAND what the hoo-haa was all about.

People are asking if I am selling them.

*laughs*

No(t yet)

Trust me, I amaze myself.

To think, I really sanggup try and re-try the recipes till people are willing to eat my bakings.

Good thing I do have a maid who will help me with my craze.

Now, she is pretty trained that all I need to say is,"Bik, besok saya nak baking."

Everything will be ready.

I will just need to go down and start baking. Help her clean up, though she does most of it and everyone is happy.

One of my customers came over to pick up her order when I was halfway baking.

She happens to be my aunt's brother-in-law's wife.

Anyway, since she is a guest in my house, I offered her a cupcake muffin.

It was very fresh from the oven.

I thought she finished it out of courtesy. (You have to understand my inferiority complex when it comes to kitchen skills cos I was never taught to be in the kitchen)

The next thing I knew my mom said my aunt called to say that she wants to have my cupcakes.

So since her youngest brother was doing some maulud cuku rambut, I woke up early the following morning and baked for everyone.

Gave some to my other aunties to bring home too.

It was really exhausting but satisfying.

One of my uncles asked why weren't they in nice cups.

I thought muffin cupcakes in parchment paper looks nice.

Very very classic.

So I just said,"Mc Cafe jual pun orang beli per.."

*lol*

So another scheduled baking will be this coming Tue or Wed since my holidays begin on Thursday

I'm so excited!

Another of my aunt's mother-in-law said we should come over and gather at her place and have tea together.

*gleams*

Anyway, I suggested my family to take a walk at Mt Faber, partly cos I wanted to snap some photographs.

We came a little late cos was a bit lost.

Might just go there in the morning or after Asar the next time to catch another kind of view.

Food was good during the cukur rambut ceremony. Company was definitely better.

The rest will be uploaded on Facebook in time.

I'm meeting my girlfriend soon for dinner today. I can't wait. I just feel that it has been ages since I met her.

Gosh!

I really have missed you Sue.

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10/26/2009 04:24:00 PM