Triple Whammy

I have been on Medical Leave since last Thursday and as I write this, I am taking a few breaks in between.

What I thought was more of a mild asthma attack became more persistent and resulted me to be on Medical Leave till next Tuesday.

The past 1 week was nothing but exhausted trying to control the asthma. I have had asthma for the past 13 years and this was the worst hit.

I have not been to office for the whole week.

Maybe part of the asthma was due to me shifting house and the haze.

I really hate the haze because asthmatics like me will not be able to endure the weather.

In fact, this weekend was supposed to be a chilled out weekend with the husband at Pulai Springs in Johor where I have booked 2 nights of rest and relax. But since the weekend was not meant to be, we gave away our 2 nights stay.

It was on Tuesday at 2.30am that I told the husband that I needed to head down to the hospital and get my nebuliser. After that, I thought I was going to get better.

I didn't.

So the husband told me to schedule my gynae appointment earlier, from the 26th Sept to the 22nd. He wanted the gynae to advise us if I am ok to go Johor.

Alhamdulillah Lil' Missy is fine. Her weight doubled to 679grams while mummy had a net weight loss of 0.5kg.

While baby is ok to go Johor, mummy was referred to a breathing specialist in Gleaneagles.

At the time I was referred, I was wheezing and randomly shortness of breath. I lost my voice and my chest was feeling very tight from time to time.

I was hoping that the specialist was able to make me feel better on the spot.

Apparently not.

In fact, his voice was very irritating and scaring the freaking shit out of me, as if my lungs will disfunction anytime.

He repeatedly said that I have Chronic Severe Persistent Asthma and that I am at the worst stage of my asthma.

Ok fine, may be I am but there is no need to sound like Darth Vader you know.

Ok, maybe not Darth Vader.

But really, there is no need to sound so cold and stern as if I do not have any chance.

That incident made me very kancheong and I was at the brink of tears.

As always, the husband always had to knock sense into me.

"If your condition was really life and death, he would have admitted you to the hospital"

The doctor was easily agitated, no sense of friendliness and kept telling me not to search for what medicine is good for what on the internet.

In fact, he made internet sounded like an enemy, as if there was nothing trustworthy there.

On top of that, the doctor slapped my husband with almost a $700 bill.

I really wanted to smash his face and kick is ass!

It is not really about the dollars and cents because health is really priceless.

There was nothing that he did at that point of time to relief my chest tightness and asthma!

The husband was really mad. I left the clinic still out of breath and with chest tightness.

I was regulating my breathing on my own.

Then came yesterday when I told the husband that I was still having chest tightness.

At this point of time, the husband was already helpless. I cried because I felt I put the husband through a lot.

I barely got out from my room for the past many days except to the toilet and back in bed. I ate in the room and husband will prepare breakfast and made sure I took my morning meds before he left for work.

So we went to East Shore Hospital, now known as Parkway East Hospital.

There, I was stuck with a China-nese nurse who I can barely understand what she is saying apart from her bad breath. Very unstructured and was running around like a headless chicken.

I doubt she knew what she was doing.

Very irritating but I had to control myself in order to regulate the breathing.

Thank god, the doctor was more composed.

He said my lungs was clear and there was no need to be placed on the nebuliser again.

Ok clear lungs was good news to me.

He advised that any normal person would have recovered within 2 to 3 days.

But because of my current asthma condition and the fact that I am pregnant, it was a "triple whammy" for me.

I showed him all my medication and some were re-prescribed.

Alhamdulillah, I am doing better now. However, I am unable to sit for long nor walk much.

The chest just gets tired.

Lil' Sister advised the husband to make me seat by the seaside yesterday. I am not sure how sea air helps with asthma but it is worth trying.

I have been cooped up for a long time that I really appreciate just getting some fresh air.

I am still easily tired. I have yet to do my packing and reply to orders.

I am unable to take the load now but will look at it from time to time.

Here is one of the ordeal I went through. It is really no fun.

Asthma is really no fun especially when you know it can be life-threatening and only the worst of thoughts came into my head because I have my little girl inside me.

For now, the husband has changed my gynae (3rd gynae for this pregnancy) to K T Tan from KKH. I am already comfortable with my current gynae but the husband felt that these doctors are really out to make money through referrals and expensive charges.

Most doctors today runs businesses first, people priority second and I have seen many of such sorts.

In fact, my first gynae, Kelly Loi from Paragon Medical also seem the same. I did not understand why she had to question the husband what HE was working as.

We were charged at $200 to $300+ per visit everytime and insisted we visited her every 2 weeks to check if the baby is ok.

Doctors are opportunists.

My husband and I are first time parents, first time seeing such an asthma case and they take this opportunity for us to seek treatment and charge us a higher price.

Slowly, it is hard to find doctors with compassion and passionate about their duty. I do not understand the oaths they take. Maybe, they do not understand the oaths they take.

In fact, the respiratory specialist warned me that I need to go on long term treatment for asthma.

Sure I will. But not with him.

He will make me feel as if I will die tomorrow.

For a doctor who preaches Christianity in his clinic, you lack very much of your Christianity principles about Love.

Doctors are looked up to because we lean on their knowledge to lead a fulfilling life.

We respect them for the commitment they put in to attain the knowledge.

In short, we end up in their mercy to advise what is best for our well-being.

Today, many doctors abuse this and I do not blame people who no longer trust doctors.

To me, they simply asked for it.

You may wonder how can they actually sleep at night.

Don't bother wondering. They just do.

That is how little consciousness they have.

p.s: I was searching on the net for the C T Yeo and a kid was charged $344 for a 2 week treatment similar to mine too.

My bill actually doubled.

xoxo,