I wanted so much to write about the end of my singlehood journey.
In fact, I had mentioned in the blog a couple of weeks back of a scheduled entry will be up on my Solemnisation Day.
Then something happened.
My mind went blank.
I went back and forth to the laptop for many days, in fact more than a week, thinking how should I start writing it off.
I wanted to abolish the whole idea and just put up pretty pictures of the wedding.
Life will be made much simpler.
Then I decided against it.
Then I stumbled across the song by Frank Sinatra after so long!
My Way.
All the events up to the past decade started playing my in my head.
Although the song was about a dying man in his final journey, it is also the same song that is able to capture me, marking the end of my journey as a single lady.
Every word that was sung in that song was truly about me.
My life, just like everyone else's was not a bed of roses or served on a silver platter.
Ok, every rose does have its thorns and silver platter is rare today.
Bottom line, I have faced a lot of challenges in life.
In growing up when I started my school years.
When I tried and tested boy-girl relationships.
When I entered into the work force and kept going till today.
That was basically the journey of my life.
For the past 10 years in my life, I decided for myself what I wanted to do.
I brushed aside all advises for I wanted to take charge in my own life.
I had my pride and ego the better of me.
I stumbled and fall but I knew I was asking for it.
I picked myself up again and kept going. I keep catching up with my pace.
In the process, the heart got wounded, healed and scarred and the cycle continued.
I was determined to keep it going. I stopped picking up the bits and pieces in my life.
What was shattered was meant to be left behind.
I have been a woman with all smiles but then there are also times which I really appreciate the time spent alone.
That was where I began to fall in love with myself.
I became a less defensive person and embrace each and every journey planned out for me.
I still take charge of my life. I have visions, an ambition and kept pushing myself further from the limit each time.
That is me.
But as I sit here today & now at the mosque, I have made a promise to spend my life with the man who never fail to believe in me.
The man who is truly amazed with everything I do, including my antics.
The man who hated my guts when he first met me, of which I do not know how he made me fall head over heels for him.
The man who sacrifice more than just time and money to be able to quickly have me as his wife.
The man who sacrifice his career to build a family.
This man, I will give no less than my commitment to do my duties as a wife.
A companion he is, a soul-partner, my husband and in time will father my children, insya Allah.
We will start a journey together.
A new phase with new challenges but we will keep holding our hands together and stand tall.
Dad taught us to have each other as a team and compliment each other.
So today, we will be a team.
In our vision to build a family and better living.
Thank you everyone for your prayers and well-wishes.
I am honestly very touched by it and of course pray that whatever you prayed for will come true.
It will be a new excitement, new kind of anxiety, new breath of life.
xoxo
