I received a call this morning.

I was offered for an interview to my dream job.
It was my dream job till a couple of years back when I knew its limitations
I was not sore back then when I knew I wouldnt be eligible for it.
Because I knew the chances of me being picked was too slim.
There would be many specialist or elites in the field who would fill in the position quite easily.

Which was why I turned my focus to Management.
I had to be good at something didn't I?
At the age of 23 I realised being Jack of all trades lead me nowhere.

I read a lot about it and made sure I had sufficient knowledge on it.
It isn't until you develop the working experiences that you realise that rules of thumb do not work.
Not most times because each to its own.

I have adapted to many working & management styles.
I have yet to reach for my comfort zone.
The thirst for success gets harder to quench because enough never seemed enough for me.

I toil everyday without complaining.
Not that working life is a bliss.
It is in many ways but the best thing out of it is the challenges I enjoy facing.
When people hit you hard. When you try to say the right thing. Or saying the harshing things in the right way. When people pull you down the minute you lift your leg to move a step further. When people use your ideas as their credits.
That is a challenge.

So I did turn down my dream job on the context that I am not willing to take off the hijab.
Come to think of it, now that I am given a choice, I will not start from scratch to prove my marketability.

So I gave it a pass.
Am I feeling sore?
A little. I have got to admit.
Because now the opportunity is right in front of me and yet I am not taking it.

But I will stick to my direction and focus.
Get better at it.


“Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be"


Probably my dream job was just not meant to be.
With that, Alhamdulillah.