Choosing the best road

When Abbot Antonio was asked if the road of sacrifice led to Heaven, he replied:

"There are two such roads. The first is that of the man who mortifies his flesh and does penance because he believes that we are all damned. This man feels guilty and unworthy to live a happy life. He will never get anywhere because God does not inhabit guilt.

The second road is that of the man who knows that the world is not as perfect as we would all like it to be, but who nevertheless prays, does penance and puts time and effort into improving the world around him. In this case, the Divine Presence helps him all the time, and he will find Heaven."

- Paulo Coelho from Warrior of Light


Everyday, we would be faced with 2 roads. Each of which determines our Fate.
Yes, everyday we do sacrifices.
Even to a point where I had to sacrifice and eat at Pizza Hut(I am not a fan of pizzas) to eating by myself in the office.


Alright, here is where I am planning to get at.
Paulo is my all-time favourite author. His wisdom constantly enlightens me alongside the Quran.


There will always be a point of time when we are faced with troubles.
I do - most times
I used to keep my head up high and be positive.
I still do. However, now, with a different reason.

I kept my head high because of ego
I was positive cos I was the only one capable of making myself happy if everything else gets on my nerves.

But today, I view Life differently.
Let me rephrase that.
When I met Lovie, I viewed Life differently through his ways of enlightening me.

I grew up taking the first road.
Probably the ignorance of knowing the existence of another road
But after the transition of keeping my head up high and being positive, I understood the second road.

I understood it with the help of Lovie and our basic Islamic knowledge.
The world is indeed not perfect. Neither is Lovie nor myself.

We lead a relationship like all the others. Ours is no difference.
We love, we care, we fight and we bicker.
But we are lucky. We somehow begun our relationship on the right foot.
We understand basics and will go back to them during hardships.

That gels us together.

The route to our union is far from easy. Even that is an understatement.
But nevertheless we never stop praying to the Almighty.
Our faith in Him and our love kept us going.

Whenever we fall, we know we never fall alone.
There was always him. And there was always me.

We never run from the tests from God. Neither from His punishments.
But we braved each step of it together as it was all God's grace.
Never once we wanted to quit and left the other party stranded.

Though there are days which are bad and trully bad, we will both wake up hoping a better day together.
Again, if it didn't happen, the cycle will still go on.

Trusting and having huge faith that God is Almighty, we strongly believe that for every beginning, there is an end.
We had our happy moments when courting was still fresh and exciting.
That started to diminish when we faced our tests.
Still it will only be a matter of time that the tests will end, both Lovie and me surviving yet again.

By that time, we will seek comfort in Heaven.
Our Heaven.
Insya Allah.




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“You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.”

- Maya Angelou

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