I am so exhausted from work.
Ok I know I am whiny. But for the past 2 days in a row I stayed back in the office till almost 10pm. Sitting at my desk rushing through my work.


Last night my idiotic Thinkpad was not able to recognise my Windows Password. I turned choatic. Only made my mood more foul than it already was. I was worrying the entire night about not having work done in the morning.

I arrived the office this morning spending most of my morning rescheduling my meetings and get someone to chase work for me.

*evil laugh*

Thinkpad was up in an hour an a half. I was so excited cos Dearest is now on the way to the airport and he can connect online!!
I'm skipping lunch for you love!

Ok MOSTLY for you...

Yes, I wasn't in the best of moods the past couple of days.
I am not sure if it is exhaustion with work or PMS or just me.


Now if there was a problem with me, that sucks because I am so blardy complicated to begin with.


Thing is this. I always tell people that they can either put up with me or they can walk away thinking I am such a pain/anal. Little do i ever care - really.

But now I am in state where I can't even stand myself


Angry. Irritated. Pissed. Jumpy. Exhausted. Insecured. Bitter. Hateful. Bad-tempered. Grouchy. Dreadful.
I think the vocab can go on and on. But that is me now.


It is very difficult for me to go through a day without ruining it.


I tried blaming it on insecurities. I tried blaming it on work. I tried blaming on the pressure I am facing. I tried blaming on being lovesick.
In fact, I tried blaming it on anything I can point my finger on.
But it is not working.


No one/nothing is able to sponge whatever I had been feeling
I am probably harbouring too much emotions inside me that it is hard to express myself appropriately. And probably that is why I am so difficult to understand.


I am even sick writing so much about myself.
See?
I am not feeling a bit better cos I didn't even manage to express myself


Anyway, finally I uploaded the pics we took in KL. These pics were only taken on Saturday afternoon and Sunday. We went through the rest of the days FORGETTING to take any photos. I'm still sore I didnt snap any photos with Dearest.

























Tengah ghairah nak beli Cinnabon!








Me pouting cos they didnt have my CHOCOLATE

CINNABON!!!!
*pouts*








Us and the Simpsons!







Dearest is leaving for Vietnam today for some IBM seminar and workshop till Friday.
No he is neither an IBM-er nor am I liaising with him as his vendor.

God knows what happen if we just work together. We actually tried role-playing before. Trying to feel how is it like to work with each other. Esp when we both work in the same kind of environment. IT and Bank. I swear it was horrible.


Still it is going to be 3 days without him.
*pouts*


It is just so sucky.


Already he is so far. He is going further!
But the good thing is that yesterday afternoon, a head hunter called him and an hour later the Associate Director of the company, interviewing him for Regional Head in
Singapore.


Can you imagine how excited we were!?!?!
Like FINALLY!!!

*lol*

The Director was asking why he wanted to work in Singapore
And he said,"Cos my girlfriend's in Singapore"
I was surprised he answered that way and I was more surprised the Director laughed and laughed.


In fat, I was listening to his conversation on the other end praying he didnt screw it all up


Still one more interview to go..
We are soooo excited and soooo eager and we are trying soooo hard not to be toooo hopeful in case disappointment sets in.


I am hoping that the final interview will be conducted in Singapore.

*gleam*


Every moment I get to spend with him is indeed precious cos it will never make up to the distance.


They said....
Sometimes without you knowing it, life just changes with a blink of an eye...


I believe this wholeheartedly, in every aspect that you may want to look at it.