I am so blur. I am always having a sugar lack.
I am a sweet toother.
I love anything that is sweet or starchy.

And because of my body is lacking of sugar or starch, my eyes are really drooping now.
I am whining everyday to Fzam that i am hungry.
And he said that i am like a small kid.
At least i never ask if i could fast half day sey =(



Almost 4 days into fasting.
Days seems to pass very fast. But i have yet to go to the mosque and perform my Terawih.
I cant do it at home.
Cos the bed is more alluring than the sejadah after a whole day of hard work.
No matter how i would have taken a good shower and my abolution, the minute i get changed, the magnetic force of the bed is stronger.
I was planning not to go to the mosque on the first 15 days of Ramadhan cos it will definitely be packed. I am not ready to be sardined by all the makciks-makciks.
But looking at the situation now, i will try to start going to the mosque on the Sunday night. Get myself disciplined into it.


Fasting month started out pretty smooth for me and rough for many around the world.
Especially when United States didnt give a break on the bombings in Iraq and Lebanon
I truly appreciate being able to break fast with my family together.
Yes, family togetherness that many don't necessarily get to taste.
Mom makes an effort to cook.
Dad makes an effort to be in Singapore as much as he can
And me and lil' sis make an effort to be at home as early as possible so we have help set the table and send the food to the neighbours.



Its beautiful what Islam carves out of us.
Its really beautiful.
I used to condemn on the 911 attacks. I still do. I hoped it had never happened before.
But i can never stop critisizing the after events of 911.
How muslims are being emotionally tormented around the world.
How even more obvious stereo typing began.
Religion is now judged more of physical appearance.
Why do the rest of people around the world push Muslims so far.
Why do they want to aggreviate the anger amongst us.


First it was guilt that the Muslims bear when the 911 happened.
Muslims were all out to explain the theory of Jihad.
That Islam was taught on the basis of Faith and Compassion.
But why when the Muslims speak nobody listened.
911 happened 5 years ago and only now do the Westerners see through the Muslims.
Not all, but the numbers are probably increasing.
I am glad looking at the political situation in Britain and USA.
So much upheaval.

Why scrutinised on the portions of Muslims who retaliated when they hold the minority in the world's muslim population?


Why look down on the Muslims when whatever we do, we say Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
"Allah the most Merciful and most Compassionate"
But the media puts it as Muslims being barbaric and animals. All the want is war.
Dont talk about Jihad. It is an understatement.
Everything was being catagorised at Jihad after Osama bin Laden.

And these American idiots keep calling him Bin Laden.
*lol*


Why blame the Muslims in terrorism when terrorism started generations or even centuries ago.
Why blame Muslims in general without highlighting the key people?
Why never mention about Bush or Blair?
And why never mention about the latest statement that Pope Benjamin said

He was quoted that some teachings of the Prophet Muhammad as "evil and inhuman"
So what happens from here?
Muslims are to remain dumb and not react to any anger inflicted upon?


Pope,
Why bother having a dialogue session? Why say that you were being "misunderstood"? How much more misunderstood could the statement be?
Don't talk about the Christians and the Muslims having to work together.
Politicians may seem to "have put the past behind"
You may get their support. But definitely not from the majority of the Muslims in this world.
You will always be remembered Pope.
Always.
Everybody is now watching you.


Ok enough of religion talk.



HARDY MIRZA!!!
My Singapore Idol!
*lol*

I was screaming and shouting when his name was being announced.
Trust me, i never followed up with the programme since i heard how horrendous many were. Young stars wannabes. Rock wannabes. Taiwanese wannabes.
*urgh*


I never voted before. I refuse to put money to a rich organisation.
So i didnt vote.
I almost faltered from my principle and wanted to vote for Hardy.
I wanted to pick up the phone and call.
1 vote makes a difference. And i thought mine would.
*haha*
I ALMOST voted. But i didnt.
I told mom,"Let's do the prayers method"

And when his name was announce, i was screaming and shouting and jumping in my boxers and t-shirt.
I got a friend to do it with me too.
*lol*
She was also in boxers and t-shirt.
Both in our slenger faces, holding kitchen towels and specs!
And my mom was so afraid that the people at the mosque could hear us.


I am contented Hardy won.
I just hope he doesnt blow it, now that popularity and fame is right in front of him
And I am praying that he sells.
Sells in a larger market other than Singapore and Malaysia.


*whine*
I want to go home!
I am hungryyyyy!
*sob*sob*