I miss blogging.

Friday was so totally busy.
Meeting and rushing to get the HP projector ready
And then meeting again.
By the time I sat at my desk, it was 5pm.
Exhausting but seriously no complaints.
I happen to enjoy it.

Friday was probably a wrong day to pop by the service centre.
Not only is it packed but i saw a few black faces.
*haiz*
Its really ok.. cos I don't owe them a living.
I seriously don't mind if they don't agree to me.
Cos apparently, we dun quite have the same wavelength.
And I'm sure whenever I arrived or leave, i would be the talk of the town.
It is a good thing I left.
Can you imagine seeing the faces I don't wanna see only because I can't stand myself being a hypocrite to them.


The weekend seem longer than usual.
Probably cos I had no AMP due to Polling Day.
The heat for the elections are probably over for some.
But for me, this is the best time to sit down and analyse the whole situation.
Why?
The results are out in details.
Cos the nation has spoken.
No more what ifs so-and-so won.
Then you start reading between the lines of the contestant and the contested.
How the 'game' is played.

Again, lets not get too political.
Life will still go on.
Election's probably just another human game to many.
I just follow the flow.
Let it be.
As long as i can live comfortable, i'll choose to stay far away from such issues




My so-called-best-friend as someone would have put it, msged me about her cousin's accident.
She has been sweet to sms me more often than i sms her.
I simply thanked her and didnt ask how she was doing.
I told her i had been super busy with work and didnt reply her msg till days later.
She was alright with it..(i guess)
And I have not been reading her blog and neither have i been updating my blog much.

When i got the chance to read hers,
I went over to the cousin's little sister's blog and read the trauma she went through.
I felt for her.
Who wouldn't?
She lost her brother through a motorbike accident.
Its a norm that in motorbikes accident, the rider survives and the pillion dies.

God created this universe with the cycle of life.
We choose to be born.
And when we are, we are not to forget that the life given to us is a privilege not an entitlement.
Life is not entirely for us to decide cos with the agreement to be born, we are all brought down to this earth for a reason.
For the reason for the people around us.
First our families.
Then the society.


Whatever happens, lets take it as a test from God.
Insya Allah with the faith we uphold, he will open our eyes and heart to see the more beautiful things in life.
And appreciate life more.


There is always a reason why God take things away from you.


When He takes away our loved ones,
He would make us a stronger human who will perceive life in a different angle.
He would make us see what would happen should this person still be around in our circle of life.

When He takes away our money to survive,
It will make you realise the hardship with no money.
The hardship that many face in this world as poverty keeps rising.
The meaning of Zakat and idea of compassionate giving and not just giving.

When He takes away our pride,
He makes us realise that nobody is perfect.
That we should never make anybody feel imperfect.
We are all His creation and He is not imperfect.
But sometimes we need to feel handicapped to understand the goodness of what we had

That's why we are always to say our thanks to God.
But we take it too lightly.
You and me.
Cos it is human's nature to take things for granted.

We always question Him about the things that happen in our lives.
Why are we stripped off of the privileges.
Why we have to face traumatic situations.
Why do we get hurt.
At the end of the day, He will not literally tell us why.
Keep the faith and your opened-heart will tell you the answer.

I am not trying to preach.
But I have been at my pit-bottom for so long.
And everytime i thought i would soar, i would end up in the pit-bottom again.
I went through many years of my life in depression.
Alhamdulillah, things are looking up for me now.
And I pray that God will allow me to enjoy the goodness of life heaven and earth.


So far there are only two groups of people that hurt me.
Those who cheated and lied to me.
Those who played behind my back and tried to pull me down.
They know who they are.
I never once lost my cool
and
never once did I ever confronted them because the hurt i got is probably God's way of opening my eyes.
I always let it be
Forgive.
But will never forget.
Cos it is a life lesson learnt for me.


This time round I have no conclusion to what I started saying.
Cos I am still searching myself.
Trying to understand so many things that happen in my life.
Appreciating the patience that God has in me.
I just hope this is a good start.