I have been disturbed since this morning when I woke up and saw an sms from a person whom I least expected. His msg came in at 2.30am. I was dead asleep.

Zul's msg...

Then when I was at work we chatted. It turned nasty. I was frustrated.
He wanted me to move on and but i think he was not able to see me moving on too fast.
Shit! I mean damn... chee bye! he was having fucking fun in Dubai when I was here feeling so miserable and bottling up so many things.
I am so fucking pissed.
He ditched me. He dumped me having want me to fend for myself and he was out there having fun. Silly me for thinking that he would feel just as miserable.

Fucking silly me.

He said this was unlike other breakups where people leave cos they stop loving each other but he didn't.. aaaaahhhh... fuck la. I didnt sense any tingle of miserable-ness(is there such a word? ah fuck ah who cares)

People never know what exactly happened. And its people's nature never to listen. They just want to know what is at the end of it and then bitch bitch and just bitch.

Why does he have to do this to me?
Have I not gotten enough blows from him?
Have I not Zul?
Have I not done enough? Have I not put up enough?

Ahhh... fuck la. He would least bother.

And life has to fucking go on. It has to fucking go on... whether people like the way or goes or not....

I just wanna be happy.Can't I? Can't I?
Fuck... Happiness is really hard to get... fuck it then..

OK OK language is getting really bad.. screw it..
I just wanna scram..