Two years ago today

Two years ago at this very day, I had the most wonderful time of my life.
It was a start to a brand new life being a wife. The day I promise to commit to my duties as a wife and mother.

The moment I was legally married, I felt myself unleashed from my past and was looking forward for the future.
I breathed fresh air.

I know this was the path I wanted.
The husband and I went through a lot to kick-start that life we wanted and we were very determined to keep going head-on.

We honeymooned pretty long, until dad got sick and passed away. That was when I was snapped out of my dreamland and into the reality pool.
Other than that, we were on the high and on cloud 9 all the time.
Our pictures were full of fun and silly things which truly spells out who we are.

Till today, despite our minor differences in character, we do see eye to eye with many more things. It is true that birds of the same feather flock together and we are one living example.

My best times with him is when we sit down and have a good chat about work, about our family direction and even reflections of life. It is amazing that I do learn a lot from him though I think he never mentioned that he did from me.
But I am sure it is vice versa.

I can only thank my husband for the times that he was there with me during my challenging pregnancy and the tough time I had to go through when I lost my dad. In fact, it is only now that I am recovering from the aftermath and smiling a little bit more than I usually do.

A few days after we got married, my dad spent a little bit of time to tell my husband this,"Even being the man in the house, always trust and consult your spouse because she will give you her most sincere opinion. Everyone else may have a hidden agenda. Your siblings even. But not your wife. She has your best interest at heart and you can trust her opinions."

That was one of the best advises my husband probably received. Today, it is very heartwarming that regardless anyone who needs his decision, he will always say, "Let me talk to my wife because I think she needs to know before I decide."

From there, I knew respect is earned.
He respected my existence in our family unit and as a wife, I must not compromise the same.

Building a family with you is probably the next best decision in my life.




And here we are today



If daddy was still alive, we would be celebrating his birthday.
I still miss him a lot. Never a single day passed without me remembering him.
We take our father for granted a lot because he gives in pretty easy and quick. Last year was the first time we bought for him a birthday present on time.

Him being him, every time when we asked him what would he like to have, his answer will always be,"Nothing."

Yes, it can get very frustrating at times.

Last year, we bought him a Timberland jacket which he managed to wear it on trips to the Philippines.

He is missed in many more ways and many times I wished that he would have lived longer and be in our lives a little while more.
But He is kind and He knows that this is the best for Daddy and us. I may not see it today. I may not understand it at all but I need to have some faith.

Many say he is in a better place. I tell myself the same thing too.
Insya Allah he is as we never stop praying for him and his well-being there.

Anniversaries from this year on will be bittersweet for me. When I got married, I knew it was going to happen but I didn't expect it to be too soon into my marriage. On the brighter side, I am glad to be sharing this special day with him.

I miss you Dad.



Al-Fateha