Kasihku

I have been very forgetful since my last trimester of my pregnancy.
It didn't help with the events that take place after that.
I get very frustrated because I never need to look at my calendar for any of my life events.

Today, before I head to bed, I check my phone calendar to see if I have any morning meetings and need to wake up earlier than normal.
Meeting or engagements which starts at 8 or 8.30am is really no joke especially when you still have a baby.

Then I will check again when I wake up in the morning to digest my events before noon.
Before I head for lunch, I will check my calendar again. If no engagements, I will head home, work from home and spend a little more time picking up my daughter and kissing her all over.

But being the forgetful person I have recently been, I keep forgetting whether I brought my phone (despite hanging up the phone probably 2 minutes ago) or where I placed my phone.

So the other day, as usual, I forgot where I placed my phone.
I picked up my husband's phone and called my phone. Working efficiently I call it.

This song by Anuar Zain came out.
I rarely hear this song. But I took the effort later to listen to it.
Hear the lyrics.

Then I felt butterflies in my tummy again. I was brought back to the day I got married to him.



Then it hit me.
It hit me that losing my dad, being there for my family, being a new mom to Rania, I may not have been the best wife. Especially when my health keep hitting rock bottom. But he was with no complaints and much understanding.

I fell in love with him all over again.
And like I always promise him whenever I think I failed him.

"I will get better."
That's my eternal promise.

Have a great weekend everyone. Spend it meaningfully with the ones you love.