There are many status comments, blog entries be it on Facebook, blogs or Multiply who are looking forward to Ramadhan.
Welcoming Ramadhan. Geared up for Ramadhan.

To be honest, I don't know if I am.
I was trying not to address it but I cannot avoid it any longer.
Terawih begins tonight and I am not sure whether I want to do it at home or at the mosque.
Practicality works best for me. While I stay right in front of the mosque, I'm sure the mosque will be jam packed.
I usually head to the mosque 10 days after fasting begins.
People start making kuih, break fasting outside, heading to Geylang, sewing curtains, spring cleaning etc etc

It will be 30 days of having disturbed sleep, having to wake up for Sahur.
20 days of possibly waking up late for work.
20 days of being highly irritated at work.
20 days of rushing from work to break fast on time.
Probably 10 man-days to clear the house.
Another 7 man-days fretting about what to wear for Raya.
30 days of lack of food and drinks and huge possibilities of being short-fused.

Also, as much as I love to perform terawih, I will be very irritated with mosque headmasters, discipline masters and probably kids running around, stepping on the towel which I used as a cover on the mosque carpet so as not to get asthma.

To me, Ramadhan is always a challenge.
I pray it will be smoother for me this year.
I am not going to lie how fun this is and that is during Raya. (I am thinking on grounds where those onliners facade probably last max 2 weeks)
Oh, I was never keen about Raya Bazaars too since forever.
Ok let's add to the 5 days being dragged to the Bazaar.

I'm just dragging Ramadhan for I am not confident that I can balance it nicely with the fasting requisites to the real world challenges.

Hey, I am only human and being honest with myself.
Good for those who are excited about Ramadhan, really. I pray the spirit can be kept up for a month.
Probably I am just keeping myself in check so that I can last for the month.
So that tomorrow's fast will be better than today.
It was the same concept I adopted last year and may have had reduced the probabilities of being complacent.

Anyway, I know it is a best month of all good months.
I am going make use of the month to doa and focus more on ibadah, Insya Allah.

To all fasting Muslims, selamat menjalani ibadah puasa.