So here is the closure of the bulk.

Love

But before I get there, let me tell you a fairy tale story.


Once upon a time, a guy asked a girl "Will you marry me?"

The girl said: "NO!"

And the girl lived happily ever-after and went shopping, dancing, camping, always had a clean house, never had to cook, did whatever the hell she wanted, never argued, didn't get fat, traveled more, had many lovers, didn't save money, and had all the hot water to herself.

She went to the theater, never watched sports, never wore friggin' lacy lingerie that went up her butt, had high self esteem, never cried or yelled, felt and looked fabulous in sweat pants and was pleasant all the time.

The End


I could not help laughing reading the story.
Refreshing isn't it?

Love was not a fantastic chapter for me during the year 2008.
Which is partly why I was looking forward to the end of 2008, hoping that 2009 brings its balance.
Well.. I am remaining positive that it will...

I was not kidding when I said I was set up on dates.
Honestly, my days run really busy and I rarely get to sit down and breathe.
Running my life is no joke.
Not that I am complaining. I never will. In fact, I enjoy very much what I am doing.
But the truth goes to show that I really do not have the time to scout a guy, find some sort of chemistry and try to hit it off.

Dates are always scheduled days after the call or sms, squeezing them in for a couple of hours.
Evil truth, I can just drop it just before it, giving work as an excuse.
And I will stay in the office to make it seem like it is really work.

As I get excited with Her Closet's progress and the work piling up during the start of business after the New Year, my heart will just sink everytime mom talks about marriage.
Even despite me telling her to drop the matter.

I asked Lil' Sis why the pressure and hurry.
I could not see it really.
She explained that marriage is the only missing link in my life since it seem that everything else is quite stablised and pretty much settled.

Why I didn't see the hurry till today?
Many reasons.

I fear looking at how many husbands are cheating on their wives.

I need to focus to see through some things before I could really think of settling down. (Unless the man I marry can cushion)

I am disgusted looking how men above their mid-20s are still very immatured.
Or how men in their late 30s are so emotional nak mampos!!! Even in the public like Facebook or blogs or ya-daa ya-daa
And I seriously mean horrendously emotional.
So kalahkan aku ni yang perempuan ok!!
That was what I told mom when she ask me over dinner today why no dates worked out.
How to find chemistry like that.
Worse, head of the family.

Probably deep down, I know that in time, the person will surface.
There will be a right place and right time.
I keep emphasizing on this aren't I?
But it is true.

I believe in true love.
I believe in soulmates.
I believe in Allah.

If they said Allah is as close as the jugular vein, Lovie took second place.
In my heart.
Though it had never been easy and has yet to be, it has almost been 2 years and counting.