Nyai pulled out her feeding tube last night.
Time check 1.15am

I was freaking out.
I called Nurul who was asleep since she was on morning shift today and she was telling me over the phone to take couple of measurements.
Only then we knew whether to push it in or pull it out.

Either way, it freaked me out.
I was stammering on the phone and she was pratically screaming for me to relax.

I needed that.

After checks, Nurul said it has to be pulled out.
Nyai was coughing, probably choking on the discomfort of the feeding tube.
I was more kancheong la..

Instructions were over the phone.
She told me to twirl the tube around my finger.
I kept asking her how and she said,"Kak Intan... do you know how to anyam ketupat?"
"Nooooo!"

In the end we managed to pull the tube out with little effort.
That was how much Nyai pulled out.

She missed one feed today but all is fine now.
We managed to have the temporary tube fitted in and waiting for the 3-mth rhyles tube.

*phew*
Thank god all is settled for now.

Everyday, I am faced with a different scenario.
Different challenge.
But I get better at it and so does everyone in the house.

The maid came in yesterday.
The only disadvantage about her is that she is short.
But the good thing about her is that she has the initiative to learn and very cooperative.

Then again new broom sweeps clean.
We shall see in time.

I set most of the rules at home.

It sure feels different having a maid at home.
I am not used to having an outsider in the house but it sure helps a lot with the number of things I need to run at home.

Its been 2 weeks that Nyai is back home.
She is settling down pretty nicely. Having a dependant at home like her is really something. We have guests coming to the house.
The house is filled more with laughter, noise and daily miracles.

Loads of people probably think or even said that there is not much that can be done with Nyai.
But we refuse to think that way.

Every morning, I wuld greet Nyai with the same 'Good morning' tone so that she would eventually know that it is me.
After 4 days, she got used to my voice and noisiness despite me not brushing my teeth yet when I wake up.
Day 5, when I asked her ,"Nak mandi?", she will nod her head.

It just brightens up my day.

I change her, I do her wound dressing, I feed her.
Not that I am the only one doing it, but I would do it everytime I could.

I will talk to her a lot and only a couple of times she would get to voice her words out.
Today she 'scolded' me when I wanted to sit her up.
"Duduk," she said. So clearly...
I could only laugh.

I will give Nyai instructions.
Get her to initiate things herself.
Of course she could not but there are miracles.

I put her on the Commote(Wheelchair shower) and was about to pull her back but she pushed herself back herself!
After shower, I will sit her on the wheelchair. Make her watch TV or sit beside me if I am working from home. Talk to her.
When it was time to sit her up on the bed, I sit her half way on the bed and say,"Nyai ingsut"

She takes a while to register.
She will position her palm on the mattress and try to shift in a little bit.
I just held her shoulders and smiled.
I carried her on the bed though.

It is wonderful to have her in my house now.
I get to see her anytime I wish to. No more curfews to what time we can see her.
I can come down at 2am and sometimes see her looking in her room.



Alhamdulillah, all have been coorperative.
Boss allowed me to officially begin work at 10am since I no more do operations.

I have a wonderful sister who extends help wherever and whenever she could.
A daddy who listens to his daughters' needs.

I have a wonderful cousin who helps me out at anytime of the day.
*hugs Nurul*

We lost touch when we were younger.
Not that we were close anyway. since we live at the extreme ends of Singapore and we both were too nerdy for each other.
I became a bit more cool in JC and she was still very nerdy back in school.

Perjumpaan Keluarga Badron back in 2006 where my great great grandfather and generations down met up in Gunung Ledang for a family gathering.
We got older, we met, we cliqued.
On the very same day!

Here were our memories back then.
Just a re-cap of June 2006.






Today, Nurul's mom and dad is guilty of introducing me their relative.
Hmmm... this matchmaking doesn't stop does it?

Oh well...

Anyway, I was asked yesterday if I am happy with my life.
My reply?
"Yes"

I love myself, I feel loved and I am contented with my life today.
I have my family and friends (though not many)

What more can I ask for?
Things move on from here. I have never known my next destination but I am taking it really easy.
I have enough uncertainties and stress.
Ok I would not call it stress but I am really not planning to fret on the petty.

I will just smile and laugh it off.
It is after all just another day.