It's worse than Monday blues I am facing.
Oh my God!

I am just not in the best of physical and mental state.

I have learnt to accept that from someone whom you would want to throw the world for, he would not lift a finger much less do the same for you.

Sad?
Barely... There is no more space for that in my heart.

Now that there is just nothing left, then there is just nothing sad about it.
I'm disengaging and shutting off down my emotional system in totality.