Just felt the need to do a quick one here.
Its a Monday and I missed work on Thursday and Friday because of stomach flu.
Today, office is unforgiving and I wish I can work faster than I already have.

I rushed to the nearest Halal cafeteria near my office and queued up for mixed rice.
The simplest and fastest food you can get anywhere.
There was a co-worker. Different department, different project.

We said our hi's.

She: Sorang?
Me: Yeah.. *smile*
She: Kesian nye.. takder kawan?
Me: Uh? No.. Kesian? *smirk*

She turned away.

What the hell was that all about?
Ok ok .. I know I'm not that woman who would have a lunch buddy or must-have-someone-to-go-lunch type of person.
But kesian?

Errrr.. pardon me.. I just find it simpler to eat without friends/colleagues sometimes.
Grab, stuff, swallow, go, work.
Seriously, it is not that I am used to being alone.
I love being alone.
You know how serene it feels?

Pathetic?
Nah.. I would not put it that way.
I would not put myself in self-pity and make myself look so miserable without a friend.
Cos I am not.

Of course there will be times where I feel I would like a good laugh during lunch and I do pull some friends when I feel like it.
But I don't put a pathetic can-you-have-lunch-with-me-else-i wont-eat or i-wont-go-for-a-break-if-you-dont kind of face

Too many women today are talking about being liberal.
About how they would like to be as of same standards as men today.
How to?
For a start, you can't even eat lunch by yourself without feeling awkward.

See me at the streets eating at a cafe or even drinking coffee - ALONE.
Its either I sit daydreaming or doing my work or reading papers or surfing the net with my BB.
Any of which, if you like to join, please feel free to pull a chair and sit next to me.

But never sympathize.
I am simply appreciating time.