I promised Lovie an entry today though he doubted that my time would allow.
I must indeed admit that it is not easy to squeeze in some time in the midst of the busy schedule.

Today was different. In fact this week was different.
Efni is at work with me the whole week!
It is hard to find me at my desk, with meetings to and knowledge courses to attend.
But it definitely made me on the move.

If this week was different, then today was different from the rest of the days.
I have probably sat in front of my laptop only for a good 4 hours.
1.5 hrs in the morning & subsequently another 2.5 hours till now.

My first meeting session started at 11am till 1.30pm after which was another meeting at 3pm followed by talking to my staff for another hour.
By the time I got back at my desk, everyone was packing up to head home.
How "nice"
Tons of my emails are still untouched plus it is going to be the busy time of the month soon.
It is going to be filled with the normal presentations and project reportings
Not forgetting meetings AND my 3-full-day course in mid Feb.

*sigh*
I am programmed for almost the whole month of Feb.

I had attended a course last Friday which made me look at things with a slight change.
Learning about the possible people's character and nature, it definitely opened up a different door & show me a different light.
I quickly digested the knowledge and used it to ease my work, which I might just share in here when I have a bit more time.

I feel good knowing that I could lead a little more than before.
Converse better and work along with the rest better though it is still a learning curve for me
But it is good to know that I am a little bit clearer what is expected of me and my roles.

I remember Lovie telling me last Friday how I needed to strive to be better in terms of career cos where I am at today, I am definitely still nowhere compared to him.

*hung head*

Despite that, he remains to be one of my motivators today and I am only pleased to be stretching my capabilities and "showing off" to him like a little girl at times when I feel I did well.
I recall the time when I knew him, he was there during my toughest moments in my life.
From then on, I knew he was truely God-sent.
But yes, in a way, he brought me back to "safety" after someone kicked me into the sea.
I am seriously not kidding or being unnecessarily emotional.

In many ways, he did groom me.
To be more street-smart, more diplomatic, more analytical, more focus and errr.. more lady-like minus the spending
And I really hate that part the most.
I wish I can get all his sister(since he is the only son) to be on my side when I decide to spend.
*cheeky grin*

Probably I am missing him so much now.
I may not be in my happiest moments now but I believe God is fair.


Which reminds me, after our afternoon session, my colleague shared with 6 of us fortune cookies.
It really felt almost like Freaky Friday, only that we didn't switch bodies and it isn't a Friday.
All of us began to open ours.

I told myself that I was not going to be taken in by what the Fortune Cookie has got to say.
But I was taken aback when I broke my cookie and pulled the note.
I couldn't believe my eyes.

I started prying into everyone else's
And somehow theirs do explain their fortune in their own individual character.
This colleague who gives in too much that it eats inside her had her note saying,
"Your kindness will be paid in due time"

Another who was getting married had his note saying
"Couples in love need not say a thousand words to feel the bundle of love"

Mine?
"Patience is the key to joy"
And my lucky number is 9121

It is true that my patience is tested more each time when placed in a situation I never favoured.
But is this a sign?
Freaky isnt


P/S: The fortune cookie is halal. Does this not mean that it is not syirik kecil?
ok ok.. just a derailed thought