Public holidays are a blast!
Cos that will be the only time I have the luxury of sleep.

Pay back time!!
I woke up at 1pm today and felt so satisfied with the amount of sleep.

But as usual, I got up from my bed, switched on my Thinkpad, went down to the kitchen & made a cup of coffee.


Roamed around in my clean house.
Still clean from all the hardwork & effort me and dad put in during the fasting month.


I was more worried on my presentation review at 9.30am tomorrow morning and the slides are not fully up.
So there I was sitting down finishing up everything.

There are things still pending but those can be done tomorrow.
Boss took the Leads out for meeting over Spinelli Coffee.
I guess he was concern about the stress & pressure levels we are facing to deliver our tasks and escalations.

He pressed that we should start going for meetings without the Thinkpad.
And he kept looking at me!

*gulp*

I think he does have his point.
Still he told us to take things easier & I have been trying very hard.
If only work is like a vehicle and I am the traffic light

Ok I am starting to utter nonsense


Anyway, I was watching a show about top 50 Hollywood break ups & ironically, it was really nice to be watching it.


Last night, I had a good talk with Lovie. Not sure if it was a level-headed one.
But I was at the brink. Brink of all emotions.
The thing is, if anyone understands me enough to tackle me, I am not really a tough person to work around.


To cut the story short, there are daily frustrations from every aspect that I keep within me which I don't necessary let it out.


Right place, wrong party
Right party, wrong place
Right place, wrong timing
Right timing, wrong place


It is really hard to get the right place, right timing, right party.
I have been trying to redirect all emotions and focus on work.
Work. Work. Work.

Which displeased Lovie cos of the little time I have with him.
Still, it was better than to be fighting fire everyday with issues outside work.


There are many times which I conceal all emotions and start yakking and laughing.
No one can smell my emotions.
Cos there will never be a tinge of MY emotions in any conversation.

Even in this entry, no one can really determine how I am feeling.

Being frustrated in a situation would not help me.
"Don't get mad. Get everything."

I, will not want to think much with the tidal wave of decisions, emotions and events.
It's all God's play.

But Lovie, if someday you are ever going to stick that ring into my finger, you will need to cut my finger to get it off.

For now, I will go through what I need to go through.
Praying that energy, hope & faith will not deplete on me.



I will let Fate determine the course of my journey.