I would love to sit down and blog about my recent trip to Pahang & KL.

But I won't do that. Not now. Not today.

I am sitting down on the bed, freshly showered at this hour, with my Thinkpad on my lap feeling clean & somber deep down inside.

Sometimes I wish words could explain it all but I cant seem to put the 26 alphabets from A to Z together correctly.

So where do I begin?


I've been walking around like a zombie fathoming that it is so difficult for humans like me to attain 'simple' things like money and happiness.


It's all about the money.

I work my ass off to feel that I am monetarily under-rewarded though there are people who would be satisfied with what I am getting now.
But I am going to do something about it.
The good thing is I can do something about it.
And I am doing something about it.

So that is almost a done-deal.


I dream of pursuing my studies.
Probably time is not on my side. Or I could say that my time management is horrendous.
After the last application I made and mom suggested that I shouldn't pursue, I have been missing dateline after dateline to sit down and write up my application essays and get all the referee letters done.

My bad.

Part of me will never feel complete if I do not obtain another certification though I am not sure whether I would.


Ahhh.. Happiness
THE word aside from LOVE which is darn complicated

I miss being happy. I really do.
I see people chattering and laughing over dinner and I realised that it has really been a long time since I felt trully light-hearted.

Then I asked,"What happened to me??"

During the ladies' late night walk in town earlier this evening, mom said,
"You know how I enjoy my nights when you come back from school and work. It really make me feel happy. I forget all my worries"
It can be that simple.

Or is it just me who is making it feel complexed.

Still, my search has yet to cease.


School holidays are in (I think) and wedding and engagement invitations flood in.
While everyone is so excited and happy of their big day, I pray for them it turns out fine.
Still, I wish people seriously stop asking my mom,"Bila Intan punya turn"


I know that many my age would have tied the knot or are going to tie the knot.
But there are many too who have not.

It is never too late to be married.


Anyway, when I overheard mom saying it, I turned to lil' sis and asked irritatedly,
"Why are they so enthusiastic about people getting married and enagaged like as if they won a lottery or something"

Her reply?
"Of course they did! $10,000!"


*roll on the floor, kicking legs in the air and 'hammering' my parquet*
Wahahaha!


Now that is a good one.
Way to go my love.