I'm freaking out with a lot of work today.
And it is a Friday.

So many things i am learning on my own.
This is my humble moments again, calling people up asking how reports were generated for my measurements.

Every call, i learn something new.

I am not complaining about.
Never will.

Today marks my 1 year anniversary in IBM.
And i grew to where i am today.
Which is surprisingly quite speedy actually

Got my appraisals which was better than expected.
Alhamdulillah.
71.4% rated outstanding
28.6% rated good

Got a higher pay raise then the supposedly capped amount.
Which i am still quite disappointed about.
Bonus got doubled.
OT pay still rolls.
I didnt bother to fight it further.
Cos i am taking a new portfolio and still maintaining the old one in totality.
Which explains my 11-hour shift everyday.

Can someone teach that anal the techniques and methodologies to delegation?

Gawd..

Sometimes, i wish people don't make themselves hateful.
You know...
They might just end up getting cursed and one day on the way home, they get knocked down by a trailer or something.


But people will have their share.
I know it.


With work like this, lucky i aint married or with kids.

Probably in couple of months down the road, things are going to change.
Do something new.

Everything might be new in a few months time.

Part of me am looking forward to it
Part of me am scared with what unfolds after the change

My next step to life may be known to a few. Unknown to many.


In my life, i did too much running away from my problems.
And i have been complaining that they keep catching up with me.


And what if I ran and ran and ran and i saw a sign
EMERGENCY EXIT

What should i do?





I really drag weekends
*clasp hands*
"Oh God tell me what i should do"



And I have been harbouring too much anger
Sometimes I crave to unleash it.


But everything has its place and time.
The time isnt right as for now....


But there will be a time...