I am getting easily temperamental.

I was screaming at Fzam the whole time we were having lunch this afternoon
Cos i was irritated not able to find a nice handbag for myself
I began picking on him for so many things that were not exactly wrong
Or should i say forgiveable
Or can even close one eye to that.


I was screaming at Fzam about how i didnt know how to do the online overtime declaration.
I threw my phone to the wall 4 times
And screamed to him on the phone that MY phone was spoiled.

(ouh yes i do hang up the phone on him-all the time. But its ok. he didnt complain a bit. Men can't complain too much else they sound worse than a transvestite in men's clothing)

Then i just started banging my hands on the table with so much anger.
I was so frustrated that after so much screaming and shouting and yelling, i had no more energy.

So i cried.


Little did i realised that my knuckles bled
and on top of that another 3 tiny scars and a bruise.


My anger, rage, fury and wrath need not exist with a cause.
My irritation level is very high.
Or should i say extremely high.


I am shocked to see myself in such a manner.
I have been able to have my emotions in check most times.
But now i cant.


I simply cant.


All hells has broken loose.

So please.. have mercy on yourself and dont come near to me


oh....



And another thing...


PLEASE....

The people out there who figured that whatever they wrote on their blogs to hurt me or make me envy them or whatever stuff that little premature kids do,
Please forget it.

I am serious.
Forget it..

Cos i am not.
And will never be.
Cos i know your character better than you think i know yours.


Its really ok.
If you declare war, i am willing..(esp in my situation as such)
Just bring it on.

But if you are too chickened out, it is also ok.
This, i am also serious.

I let you win
Yes the score honourably goes to you.
1-0

Take the trophy.
Gleam all you want.
I'll sit back and watch you win the drama.
I promise to smile at you.
And to stand up and clap my hands frantically for you.
Showing you how glad i am...


I am glad to see you fall in the hands/arms/ heart (or whatever shit for the matter) for another fool.
Probably you deserved it.
I had my share of wasteful life.


And then i shall raise my hands.
High up in heaven
Thanking God for saving me from such tribulations.