What's wrong with me

I have no idea what is happening around me.

My conversation with someone one late night brought thoughts to my mind.
What is Shah exactly doing in my life? Is he a rebound? Or a comfort zone?
So many questions still spinning.. So many answers not found...
I am not sure what I should expect and what i should do next...

I have been getting in and out of arguements with him with I don't know what. Funny how I get easily irritated nowadays.
Sometimes I wanna be left alone but when i am, I am too lonely.

Is it my PMS? *sigh* And i think there is something wrong with my period. I'm a bit worried... *sigh*

I am too lost.. so lost...


Shah,

I know there have been many quiet angry moments between us. A lot things that we are uncomfortable with. And I don't think I know what is the cause and the reason behind it. Probably i need the time. Probably i need the space. I am not sure of which...
Let me just apologise.. I know you don't deserve any of these... None of it...
And I am not sure why it happens...
I'm just sorry.. Give me time ok..

*hugs* i know you'd always be there for me...

And I appreciate you a lot...

Thank you.