Today is horrible.
There was a regional meeting early this morning.
Scheduled at 9.30am.

I had my work all ready and done.
Everything was finalised the previous evening and sent out to those attending the meeting.
I was ready.
Or at least I thought I was.

Alarm clock at 7.15am - set

The night before I promised dad that I would have breakfast with him.
My day was supposed to set out early remember, only that I woke up at 8.05am

I wasn't about to cancel breakfast with dad in the morning when I have promised him.
Plus I knew he woke up early just for me.
So we rushed through breakfast in under 15 mins and then he sent me to work.

I was at the office lobby by 9.30am
Damn!
Conference started and I was further stalled by the lift.

When I set my bags down, I pulled my wires and my Thinkpad and rushed to the meeting room.

When I walked in(nearing the meeting room, I walked in), all have attended the meeting, whether physical or call-ins for those not in Singapore.
I pretended to remain calm when in my heart I was like shit shit shit

Meeting was about to start when one HK staff raised that they didn't get the slides.
Double damn.
Turns out I sent everything else in the email except for the slides.

I rushed to send to them on the spot of which only then we started the meeting.
9.38am

8 mins behind schedule.

Boss didn't seem very happy.
My fault.
One of my worse blunders in my history with IBM.
I was feeling so sucky by then.

Boss apologise to everyone on my behalf for the late call-in.

It didn't end there.
IBM Security walked in and out cos one of our Client Managers from US was not verified to enter our floor. And so, in turn, it was me having to walk in and out handling the situation while the meeting was running.

Other than that, there wasn't any hiccups on the details I did on the slides.

Then I found out another thing.
I had given the wrong meeting room to my Boss which he had in turn wrongly kicked out the group of people in the meeting room.

It was horrible.
Till now, probably nothing had made me smile.
I am not in peace.
And the sucky feeling is still clinging on to me like a leech.

To think I typed this entry twice cos IE sucked.

Probably I am too exhausted with the things happening around me.
When you emotionally exhaust yourself, you get drained out like nobody's business.
But I am not here to point fingers at situations or anyone.
I blame myself.

I should start learning to shove things aside and sometimes just let things be.
If no one is thinking about how I feel, then why should I do otherwise?

This is just going to be another phase where I pick up and give myself another go.
I need to re-focus