It feels wierd to start blogging when I don't do it that often anymore.
But I am trying.

I'm at a very different stage of my life.
Remember I said I started the New Year in a very unpleasant manner.
It turned out that way till I felt my whole world crashing on me.
Till I felt that it was me against every single soul out there.
There is no one I could turn to.

Probably I became more plastic over the past almost 2 weeks.
But only because the cruel truth is that the days have to go on.
Whether you liked what was going on in your life or whether you felt like you didn't want to wake up the next morning.
It didn't matter cos the cycle of life continues.
Day and night comes by.
You will have to sleep and wake up the following day and do what you need to do.

Whether or not anyone heard your cries.
That's the real life.

In times like these, it somehow changed the way I am at home and the way I am at work.(these are the only places you can ever find me)
I only have the time to understand myself, listen to myself, cry to myself and rest myself when it is time for bed.

But like what I said, all is balance.
With the hardships and challenges that I am going through, there are good things that come to my way.

Just like Lovie, I am moving my way up.
For the first time in 25 years in my life that I see my parents so proud of me.
I am proud of myself.
Looking at a good pay raise and a jump of 3 ranks up and a conversion of a more stable payroll.
It is indeed surprising but all those is thanks to the Almighty.

Me & Lovie are both at the peak of career growth(not the peak of the career) which keeps us going every day.

I am praying things will start looking up in all aspects.
I started the year with pain, suffering in the hospital.







That was the first time that I was ever in a hospital and the first time ever that I was being injected there.
You could have imagined what a whiner I became cos the nurse was so stressed that finally the doctor came in to inject 3 different dosages of medication.
Macam mana dia tak stress? Jarum belum masuk, I dah terpekik dulu
But she kept poking me with the excuse that my "vein lari-lari"

Then on Tuesday, I went for my teeth laser whitening.
I took the opportunity cos I paid about one-third of the price you get at dental clinics ie $450.
But it is so sakit nak mampos ok!
They said it is a biting feeling. Like a bee sting.

So can someone please explain the 2 panadols that I had to take and still had a hard time sleeping.
Not only that the first thing I felt when I woke up was the pain in my mouth.
Not only that, I had to brush my teeth so delicately cos the gums would just bleed.
Not only that, I could not have any coffee or tea for the next 24 hours.
Pantang
So you can imagine me, a zombie at work today.

In fact it still hurts till now.
It's like so ngilu sakit but I hope it is all worth it.







I was bearing so much pain that whatever they put on TV for me didnt work.
Though it was a concert I would very much enjoyed to watch.







Anyway the lady said I am the first customer she had who can talk during the process.
Probably my threshold of pain is very low

or

Probably, I really have a big mouth.