Ramadhan is a month which changed a lot of things for me.
My normal schedule went through a 180-degree turn.

In short, everything is challenging.
But Alhamdulillah, fasting is pretty much a breeze this year.

As much as I am usually earlier than normal to work during Ramadhan, there was a time when my exhaustion played me out. There were several occassions when I didnt hear the alarm clock or its snoozes.

See the thing is I am in the office between 9.30am to 9.50am
As much as people collateral would so want to say something about it, they can't looking at the hours I put in work.
I am no 9-to-6 office girl.

Most times, it would be me and the 12-hr support team at the end of the day.

I work on my emails in the wee hours of the morning, despite me working till late in the office. Cos I want to be rest assured that the minute I walk in the office, Boss can raise issues on the emails he wrote and I am prepared.

Yes I was that kind of worker till Ramadhan started.

One time I woke up at 10.15am!!!
No time to menggelabah. Sms-ed boss that I will be late. Duh!
But told him I would be in at 11am.

Hmmm.. no I didnt mandi cowboy. I simply took a cab down and reached close to an hour later. But I was honest. Honest to tell him I overslept.


I am exhausted.
Exhausted having disturbed sleep everyday.
I will catch another 2 hrs of sleep after Subuh.
Exhausted of tirelessly cleaning the house - which still has quite a load more to go.
Exhausted having to rush through work. Out of the office at 5.30pm. Buy/arrange buka

Once all that was targeted to do are settled for the day, I will sit and read my mails. Mostly read than to reply. Cos I will be too exhausted.

By the time I tuck in, it will be around this time.

Getting used to the new bed wasn't easy. There was a time I couldn't sleep throughout the night. After Subuh, I started working on my emails & blogging and didnt sleep.

4.30pm that day, I was dozing head-banging in front of my Thinkpad
MY FIRST TIME EVER!!
Worse, Boss walked in.
Note: I have the honour of being the only one sitting BESIDE him.

I went home an hour later and dozed off in bed with my office clothes.
During buka, lil' sis called and screamed for me to come down.
I was 'dead'


But makan tetap makan ok!


Emails started piling.
Worse, there are a lot of processes moving across teams.
Worst, Week 1, 2 & 4 are disasterous. With reports, presentation and meetings flooding the calendar.

What made work more challenging was that people was constantly testing my patience.
They really really do.
Some people felt that the politics in my current workplace was worse than previously.

*laughs*

In my previous workplace, I thought God forgot to pity me cos I walked in and out of hell numerous times.
But today, I take it as they are all the same.
Politics remains as politics and I will still remain in my 'harmless' composure.

So stop all your jelingan manja at me just because I hardened your tongue.
If I had mentioned to put my foot down before, now I am stamping harder.
*shake head* Not emotional.
They know if the voice is straight and firm, it means business.

I am an easy person to work with - really.
Those who doesn't think so are majority women. Heran aku
No I don't work my way through men either cos that don't work.

I have my own principles & etiquette at work.


Ramadhan was also a month where I see things I never expected to see
Hear things I never expected to hear.
Whoever thought that those who tried to kill me from the back before, gets their karma and then in God's grace reaches my own eyes and ears.


The works of God & life.


I am no perfect human and I can't run away from making mistakes.
Even when I try to make amends, there is always so much which I can do so, despite my best efforts.

Still, there are people who are always trying to prove that they are victimised.
*roll eyes*


I have been very much careful in choosing my words.
Whether at work, with friends or even home.

Still there are times I might forget to.


Whatever it is, I am enjoying the blessings of Ramadhan.
I pray that Lovie brings me few good news soon.
And I thank God for making me who I am today. I could never ask for more.
From the point I am at today, to feel & be syukur of the things I have in my life today is an understatement.


Probably that is the beauty Ramadhan brings..