This life is mine.

I breathe for me to live.
I live to create balances in life for myself and other people.
And other people live to create balances for themselves and me.


At the end of the day no one owns your life.


You choose. You decide.
You take ownership of your own life


I am finally deciding to take mine.


Not all at one go.
I can't do that right now.
I'm still too broken and messed up

Almost 4 mths and the progession to a better tomorrow seems too slow.

Someone told me,"Slowly but surely"
Yes.. slowly but surely


Many said I have too much compassion that it kills my own life.
And i didnt want to listen to them.


Back then, I had a theory of my own life.


But now it shows.


It shows that no one took mercy on me.
At the end of the day they think for themselves.
Individuality.


The pushing didnt stop.
Neither did the stepping on the head.


Silence shouldn't be taken for weakness.


So many of them do not know WHO i am
I did mention I would carry my role according to the theatre i am in..


So why underestimate me?



For now I shall be standing on my ground.
Do what i think is best for myself and my family


Thing is i cant let go of my past.
I can't let go what had been done to me because I am still clinging on to the hurt and what I am still suffering.

My fault for letting it happen?

Maybe...
Huge possiblity.


But then again this has to stop.
They have to stop pushing me or stepping me on the head.


The reason why they push me to the brink because they didnt care the effects it had on me.
It wouldn't affect them anyhow.


They keep stepping on the head cos this head isn't theirs.


There is only so much I can take.


I remember the last time I was this angry.
When I was totally cheated by a guy.
Who promised me the moon, sun, stars, universe.
Name it.

But this time around, its worse.
Cos he touched the baseline of my life.
MY baseline.


And never in my life will i be able to see his face again.
Probably i am hoping for one more time.
Just one more.
And i hope i have enough composure to face him.
Enough anger and strength to throw it back at him.


Since all these while I have been taking, i think it is time to throw back.


I am throwing it all back
To the rightful owner.


I can't have too much negativity in my life.
No more


(as I blogged this out, my heart was racing like F1)


Still, I had many good laughs today.
Lunch was great.
4 ladies and the man of the crowd.
All seated at the table eating away.

Topic: Bed Bugs

*lol*

And these were the ladies in the bus on the way back with a heavy stomach!








Darling Ef came later in the afternoon, sitting down at her desk for i-don't-know-how-many-hours trying to recall her Lotus Notes pwd!
*smack forehead*

It is never quiet when I am with my colleagues.
Somehow they make work environment a lil' lighter.














The camera man was the same all along.
*lol*


Thank you guys for the wonderful afternoon
*hugs*