It was a busy Friday at work.
I was in a huge mood to leave work early
But lo and behold the work starts coming in 5.55pm
And even after rushing for things to clear, i left the office at 6.30pm
I was chasing for the lift cos we only had one lift servicing our floor.

When the lift came, I grabbed my Thinkpad and watter bottle and adapter to the lift.
I think i look so kecoh!


It wasn't my normal ustaz who taught me Fiqh last night.
(ok no comments)



Class ended as per normal and i had my dinner as per normal in town
And then out of boredom
Jeng Jeng Jeng....

I watched a movie!!!
Late night movie.
And it was ages since i watched a movie.
The last movie i watched was Batman Begins and just a week prior to that was Mr & Mrs Smith.


When i decided to watch a movie, i was so lost that i didnt know what movies were showing.
I had to ask who was acting in which
And the ratings for the movies and such
*God am i horrible?*

Ok this is worse.
I even got the wrong seats cos i forgot how to read the movie ticket tabs
*blush*

And so we settled for
THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA
Fantastic.
I saw the way they work and i am like,"I have almost a busy life like that"
I saw the way they dress and i am like,"Shit.. i am really running out of thing to wear"
I love the movie. I love the fashion shown in there.
*argh!*


Ok can someone really sponsor me for a change of wardrobe here.


Last night, i had a hard time sleeping.
And then the next thing i knew is that i am up so early on a Saturday morning!
Ouh God! I don't wake up early on weekends for god's sake!





My life for the past few months have been smooth sailing.
Since i met him
Then i got a job in IBM
And then I am happy with my job.
The endless amount of time he had for me
The sleep he forsakes just for me
The travelling time he puts up with to see me
The hundreds of dollars of multi vitamins that he buys for me
The birthday gift he splurged on me only to have me continue eating my sushi
And then it became part of my life. It was because of the iPod that i abandon him on train trips
The things that i would get him to buy for me
My temper which he puts up constantly without ever retaliating
Yes and a 1-carat diamond ring that he bought to symbolise us

I dont think anyone would be able to replace him.
No one.
No one can with a beautiful heart like that


Too perfect or less than perfect, I'm sure i made him go through hell with me.
I was hell.
But nothing is beautiful as we want it to be. Or as beautiful as it sounds.


And for now it is my loss. My great loss.
What is wrong with me? A question which i never found the answer over the months.
*i am choking on my tears*


It's going to be a new chapter.


What's next?
I'll let fate navigate.


I need to wake Efni up.
I need to see her.
I just need her.