I am not feeling well now.
My throat is sore and my back aches like hell.
My eyes are steaming
Every inch of me is craving for my comfortable bed and my soft pillow plus my bantal busyuk!



Luckily there arent many emails and work to attend to.
Exactly why i could sit here and blog.
Fzam had been sick for almost the past week.
Poor him.
But now that i am, i feel sorry for myself more
*giggles*




Last night, i broke news to my parents. About my worries of my job.
I didnt tell my mom cos now she has the tendency of blurting things out.
But i did talk to dad though cos i wanted his opinion.
Now i feel a lil' relief.
Thing is that talking to my dad makes me feel 'old'
For the fact that we have matured talk. And now it feels better talking to him cos i can gradually see where is getting to.
At this point of time, you tend to listen everything he say about work
Cos sometimes he tells.
Sometimes he hints.
And at this age he wants me to be capable of being rational.
Which is really not easy.


Talking to him makes me realise that i am 24.
That i would turn 25
and then 26
I mean time is ticking so fast.
16 weeks away to 2007 and i am like 'What happen to 2006?'
And i thought i was only 22 or 23.
What happen to my life in the early twenties?
They come and go without me noticing


And then looking at my age, people start trying to match me with someone else.
Just probably within the past 30 days, i was asked 4 times.
Goodness... I mean i thought i just blogged that i am not willing to sign the 50 year contract yet.
Its really true when people say,"Things will come. Dont look for it"
Or when they say,"Things will come when you least expected it"



Which brings me to another portion.
Fate.
I remember TLC singing,"Fine lines between fate and destiny"


I will not find love and my life partner.
I believe fate will bring me and him together.
How and when it is really up to God.

Fate

Just how the little things means so much when put together.
Little things that probably mean nothing on its own.

And i am waiting for fate to carve my path.
I believe that there will be pain along the way.
Pain on me and probably pain for others.
But it is going to be the best for me and the best for others.
Insya Allah


Bottom line, i am now taking life easy.
No malice. Tawakal and redha.
And I pray for God's guidance.



I think i am talking in circles.
But for now, i shall wait for nature to take its course
And for fate to seal the deal.