I took drowsy pills last night and yet i still couldn't sleep
And when i do get to catch a brief nap, i'll end up having nightmares.
So i think i might just increase my dosage tonight.
Prolly take it around 10pm.
And just knock out.

Last night was fun when we watched the Pink Panther.
Went with mom, ein and chiari
And yes, Chiari is still adorable.
We had a good laugh during the show which is surprising cos i thought it would just be another stupid show. But hats off to Steve Martin who made it a whole lot funnier.
Dad fetched us and sent Ein home.
That night while dad was at the shop, me and mom went to get the car washed
And that was when i broke the news.
We sat at the coffee shop until 2am.

I could tell she was almost as hurt as i am.
I think she saw the pain in my eyes.
I got home, gave it a good cry. Nowadays i have a hard time giving out a good cry especially when i got hurt upteenth times. Yesterday was a really good one. After almost a year.
And i hardly cry in front of my parents. the last time i did was when i was too hurt at the workplce and it was a few days before i resigned.

I slept close to 8am and woke up at 10am.
Bummer...
Mom said she couldn't sleep either cos she was thinking about me
*hugs*hugs*hugs*
She told me to just let it go.
Many other fishes in the sea.
*nod*nod*
I know.. i never had a problem with that.
Its just that probably the next guy who ask me to marry him, i wouldnt be so enthusiastic.
What for?!?

Well, i wish i am heartless
That there are many things that i do not feel..
In that manner i'm ok if i am being less of a human.
At least i wouldn't look and believe in a happy ending.
At least i wouldn't be the blardy idiot i am now.
But for now, i'll follow whatever flow rizal has in store for me
and
the other part of my life, i'll just bring it to another level.