I'm lost for words to describe whatever I am feeling now.

To be exact, I don't exactly know what I am feeling at the point of time..

Too many emotions running in me.
That I didn't have the chance to stop and decide what I was feeling.

I am excited.
Excited that this may be the beginning to something beautiful.

Scared.
Scared because this is the beginning to a string of so many interviews.


We both are going through quite a bit together.
Both families are asking questions all the time.
If not to me, it is him.


And we are always answering them.
That is alright. Cos they should know.
But what if the final answer is "NO"


At this point of time, it is more than just butterflies in the tummy

Dragonflies probably.
Cos they flap their wings faster and louder.


It feels like going for a job interview, only worse. Cos if you cant get this job, you can hop on to a similar one in another company.
This is interviewing to qualify him and myself as life partners.


What if we don't qualify in their eyes?
What if we stumble and fall?
What if we fail?


We are hanging on to just hope and faith in God.
That things will be alright in a matter of time.


As the day nears, our phone conversation is so wierd. I am not sure whether I should feel upset or laugh. Cos our anxiety and nervousness is not making us talk sense at times.


Tension heightens.


It was the grumpy us last night.
Jittery
Agitated
Fearful


But I am praying at everything is going to be for the better of us.


Some say good things do not come easy.


There was this notion that i keep standing by it during my toughest moment recently.


If Allah brings you to it, He will bring you through it


Insya Allah


I am still trying to grasp what I am feeling