Its been a long time since I sat at Spinelli for breakfast.
I had my normal sandwich..
Tuna & Egg Breakfast Roll
and
Caramel Spin

despite me having a bad cold and throat.

But i am glad we have breakfast.
We sat down and ate this time instead of a take away

And in the midst of munching my sandwich and sipping my coffee, i cried.
Cried talking and thinking of the repercussions that are happening.

Insya allah i can take repercussions that happens to me and me alone.
Cos that has what have been happening.
I have been taking the blow, for every single wrong move i made in life.
I fall and i will pick myself up again.

But now the repercussions are affecting the people around me.
The people i love whole-heartedly.

I didnt know if i cried out of anger.
Or out of sadness and regret
Or out of vengeance.

Look back and think about the ripple you THINK you created
Did you think of the effect when you created the cause?
Did you think you were helping ALL parties?
Or did you want to RUIN all parties?

Tell me.

Drop me a call and tell me.

And since all these while you didnt bother using that brain of yours(if you have any for the matter), you may want to THINK when you drop me a call..

I thought of leaving it in God's hands.

But i came to this conclusion.

I dont think He will literally come down and help me.
So with His help, i am taking things to another level.

If you think i hate you, you are MORE THAN WRONG.
I LOATHE you.

For the stories that were WAY DISTORTED from the truth.
For the drama you'd rather watch real life.
For the image you made me look.

The life I am and have been going through for almost 2 months and still putting up with it.
Things are literally falling apart for everyone else.

I was promised that things will be ok again.
And i am and have been praying very hard for the day to come

Know what...

I won't pay it back.
I will pay it even.

And i have my ways to do it.

In the meantime, I will allow you a little bit of time and space to seek God for mercy.
But i am not letting you go

Watch me Pu$$y!