My silence from blogging wasn't due to me being upset on the while taggie issue.
Initially, i was trying to look from outside the box, analysing the whole issue.
Tracking the different IPs that this u-don-hv-to-know-who is using
I am the kind of person who likes to piece the puzzle together.
Wife to Sherlock Holmes.
Ideas can get into my head out of nowhere and I can track someone so well.
Trust me. I can know a whole lot of things of someone if i wanted to.

But anyway, I got an allergy on a Thursday night.
I was eating a lot on that day.
Hvg Linda as my friend now is not helping my diet at all
*erkhekhekhe*

I didnt know what i ate.
Or what was it that caused the allergy.
Thursday nights are my ngaji nights. I had chicken rice and since it was so nice, biasalah aku mkn sampai muntah kedarah.
And that brought about my slight difficulty in breathing.
To make matters worse, i choke when i was drinking and that heighten the asthma.
It was so bad that I couldn't exactly ngaji. I cant sit. I cant breathe.

I excused myself at 10.30pm cos ngaji usually end at 11 plus
I had Fzam to accompany me on the phone. Wheezing was so bad and i really couldnt breathe.
Then the itch started.
First was at my palms. It was red hot and the itch was bad. My sister thought it was due to the fever i just had. Gave me ice to help soothe the hand but it got worse.

Within minutes, the whole body was affected.
I am serious.
Head to toe.
My whole body was covered with rash and it was entirely red. Just 3 white patches which i wouldnt mention where.
Everything bloated to 1.5 times its size.
The hand, the face, the eyes, the lips.
And i felt hot on the inside but cold on the outside.

Mom told me to take a cold shower. I did and when I came out from the toilet, i showed her my naked body.
And she said we had to go to the doctor.
I went to my favourite doctor cos he is always nice and the medication is always good.
He said i had Cholinergic Urticaria. Some allergic reaction which may be cause my fabric or seasoning or food colouring
So he asked me,"You want a jab or take tablets?"
I was in a bad state and i was in so much pain and discomfort so i asked for the jab despite me crying over jabs when i last took it at the age of 19.

Ein: Kakak don't look lah
* I looked away and held out my other hand *
Doc: Its ok.. its not painful
* And i was squeezing Ein's hands. The min the medication was going in, i squeezed her hand harder *
Doc: See not painful right. It's just like a mosquito bite
Ein: I think I am the one feeling the pain.
Doc: The rash would go away within 20 minutes.

But the medication was fantastic. I didnt know what i was doing the minute i entered the car.
I didnt know what i sms-ed my supervisor and Linda for the matter.
I couldnt see the road straight.
I was head-banging. I felt so high!
My sister was talking to me and i couldnt bring myself to open my mouth and answer her.
My concentration span was barely a second.

Well.. diorang sempat ok gi Crown Prince Swensens and got themselves and ice cream cone and i so oblivious to the whole world.

At home, my clothes were NICELY strewn on the floor..
First the jeans.. then the jacket.. then the top in one straight line.

Me: I just came back from the doctor. He gave me a jab
Him: Ok close your eyes and sleep. I wait for you.
Me: But i can barely last for 10 seconds..

That was my last sentence.
And that was 3 seconds later.
I was snoring the hell away and didnt wake up till noon when i needed to head to work
And the whole jab thing was such a miracle.
No scars.. no more rashes. Everything was normal.

In fact one of my colleagues said i shrunk!!!
*lol*

Anyway to this 'u-don-hv-to-know-who'.
I dont blame my friends for getting in to this matter.
Cos that's what friends are for. They stand up for each other. Cos I'm sure your friends would do the same too.
Unless if you dont have friends.

Look I am not trying to be bitchy to you or what-so-ever cos I dont think can live up to me and neither do i find a challenge to be bitching with you. What i am telling you now is what i honestly feel and what i think you should know.

1) I dont blog about people just because i wanted to embarass them. Exactly why no names are mentioned. Whatever i wrote is always something which i have drafted in my mind for days or weeks and i feel that other readers can benefit from it.

But i don't expect people to accept my ideology.
But i am not here to praise myself about how good I am or how bad people are. I am here to show you what sorts of people are out there. I hope we can all learn from it. whether we bloghopped and read, the blog will show the character of people.

Would you penalise me if i were to talk about some apek or makcik or pakcik or nyonya or mama out there?
No right..
Cos you wouldnt know them.
And you would have thought that it is ok for me to write about such sorts cos it is what i face in my daily life.

But why get so hyped up about what i wrote about hypocrites.
Arent they everywhere?

2) So stop being hypocritical to me.
I can smell every stinking stench of it.
I can lift my hat off to you if i didnt smell any hypocrisy.. but i do so probably i'll just look at you and say ,"bah! Get the hell outta my sight."

If we know each other as you mention, you would have told me straight in the face.
But i concluded this.
I don't think we are close. I think we are far from it. Cos else you would know the person i am
How i react to matters.
My close friends understand the turmoil i went thru and how i have reacted to it so far.
And that is the reason why they understood why i would say things.
And the thing is they have no idea who i was talking about (that was how discreet i made) and yet you are so uptight.

You should have heeded my advice when i said "Shoo!" the first time round.
Cos i hate pests.
Cockroaches, lizards.. gee i hate them.. cos they are gross.
But then again you didnt shoo! You decided to stay and fire it all up, yet mention that you wanted 'no war'?
You should have known what you going against before you started it off.
But whatever your intentions are, wallahualam.

I am not using my blog to critic others.
I am using it as my online diary - an extension since i last wrote on pen and paper at the age of 23
So i think it is you who shouldnt just the 3 of us by the cover

You know me too superficially.
So don't say you know me.

So don't call me dear.
Cos you make me puke my intestines out.
Don't chicken out when i said i have your IPs. At work and at home.

And pls dont tell me I am pretty and smart.
Not because i know i am but because i wish you had looked beyond that.
I wished you had really known who i am before you started to tag ferociously and ending it so meekly.

"if u don like that person for watever reason lah k..biar org buat kite jgn kite buat org......ang dia atas tu akan membalas yg jahat so u tak payah nak balas"
Tak payah lah nak berceramah plak kat sini kan.
I didnt do anything to people who has cheated on me, lied to me, fitnah about me, backstabbed me.
Balasan pada mereka i dah nampak pun tanpa i mendoakan.. tu pasal i blog, harap ia akan jadi satu pengajaran pada semua.
I asked an Ustaz what is the best way to learn tentang tauhid.
Not through books and syarahan
It is through your everyday living.
I mentioned that before.

If you still misjudge me, i am sorry but you are too shallow.
My philosophies and yours are different.
And i shall let you stick to yours.
I will still stick to mine cos my conscience is clear and takder niat jahat.


But when I say shoo! i really expect you to shoooooo!
You didnt
And since you didnt,
I have to say thing to you now
SCCCCRRRRRRRRRRRAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!


p/s: All that is written is purely from the bottom of MY heart.
Any intention of hurt is purely coincidental